"I have nothing left to give, I have found the perfect end, you were made to make it hurt, disappear into the dirt. Carry me to heavens arms, light the way and let me go, take the time and take my breath, I will end where I began. I will find the enemy within, cause I can feel it crawl beneath my skin. Dear agony, just let go of me."
"Dear Agony" - Breaking Benjamin
Since 2004, I have suffered more then I could ever suffer. What is worse then losing the ALCS to the Red Sox that season in the fashion the Yankees did it in?, hearing about it nearly everyday.
Well, now its over.
Winning in 2009 doesn't erase the past, but it does put a positive light in front of it and I have finally celebrated something in my life, the first time I have ever celebrated. Period.
It is a long story, my last article, "A Yankees Ring Means Everything To Me" can easily catch you up.
Its been a long road. A few people have been with me the entire way. Derek Coffelt and AJ Martelli of Bleacher Report. Derek, a friend that I met nearly 10 years ago, and AJ, a Bleacher Report friend that has become a real-life friend.
While I am trying to not make this about me, what is the purpose of writing anyways, you can write about whatever you want.
I am just one lone fan that is behind the Yankees 27th Championship, but I am privileged to share my story with others.
I would also like to mention that I will be driving the "A-Rod Bandwagon" tour bus around the United States this winter, I am sure there is a few people that have already jumped on.
To anyone that has ever said anything negative about this guy, how do you feel now? He has shown that no mater what demons you have in life, you can turn it around. It is up to you.
I have followed A-Rod's career since the day he got drafted, and I have never turned my back on him. His number, forever inked into my right shoulder is now a constant reminder to me that anything is possible.
The off-field stuff has no meaning to me and I choose to ignore it. His life outside of pinstripes is none of my business. The only thing that has let me down is the time he lied about using performance enhancing drugs. However, I think most of us have lied at some points in our lives, just not on national television.
People will have different opinions about Alex Rodriguez the rest of his career, but what he has accomplished after all of the trials he has been through, I will forever respect him.
Few people understand my love and passion for the Yankees and the sport of baseball, but whatever drives you and makes you happy, it doesn't matter what others think. I hear the word, 'why?' all the time. Why do I care about it so much? I don't answer the question when it is asked, because it isn't worth my time. The person asking probably doesn't care about the answer before they even hear it.
However, I know why I care about it so much, because for the most part, baseball is all I got.
Few friends, few family members, a single life, no kids. Baseball and the Yankees are it for me, and I am ok with that.
2009 has been a magical year for me. I got promoted at my job, got some things back in order in my life, and now this? Unbelievable.
Wherever my life takes me from here, I will hold this past year very close to my heart. It saddens me that it is over, but I am relieved that I have something to be proud of forever.