“I hurt myself today, to see if I still feel. I focus on the pain, the only thing that’s real. The needle tears a hole. The old familiar stain. Try to kill it all the way, but I remember everything. What have I become, my sweetest friend? Everyone I know goes away, in the end. And you could have it all, my empire of dirt, I will let you down, I will make you hurt.”
The words of one Johnny Cash reflect well on that of WWE Superstar CM Punk. In his legendary song "Hurt," Cash goes into many depths. Some believe this was his most personal song of all time. It has been taken in many ways, but only Johnny seemed to know the meaning he was using while covering it. I am using lyrics originally by Trent Reznor to describe Punk and what he could be thinking.
Punk has been a relatively big name for WWE over the last number of years. He went from an ECW guy most didn’t know that well, to a Raw star. Then from there went to SmackDown and then back to Raw. His first time on Raw didn’t give us much, even though he had Tag Team, IC and World Heavyweight Title runs.
Obviously, Punk has been successful, but does he really want WWE anymore? In the song "Hurt" we can really read into Cash, but Punk as well.
Punk may have made mistakes in what he has said lately, but maybe he did it just to see what would happen. He focuses on the pain because really in pro wrestling it’s the only thing that’s real. The needle of wrestling tears a hole in his body. It’s something he is used to.
He tries to put the pain behind him, and the efforts he put out that went unnoticed. He wonders how he got here, what has he become? His friends are no longer really with the company, and he misses them of course.
Despite his WWE accomplishments, he is giving it all up. Even though his fans don’t want him to go, he’s going to anyway, making the fans hurt.
“I wear this crown of thorns, upon my liar’s chair. Full of broken thoughts, I cannot repair. Beneath the stains of time, the feelings disappear. You are someone else, I am still right here.”
Punk speaks his mind, some do not believe him, but he is completely honest with the way he feels. He is not holding back, despite the disagreements. Obviously though, he may feel that sharing them the way he did was bad.
Over time, I’m sure he thinks what he says will be forgotten. Lastly, he doesn’t like where WWE is headed. When he joined, things were different. WWE changed, but Punk never really did outside of character changes.
“If I could start again, a million miles away, I would keep myself, I would find a way.”
Punk may be feeling, what if I started over? Could I be the same CM Punk I am today or would things be different? Maybe, just maybe he feels if he were given a second chance that things would never be the way they are. He could be thinking that leaving and then coming back later on would be that second chance.
Could CM Punk have an inner hurt?