Josh Brown Admitted to Physical, Emotional Abuse of Wife, Per Police Documents

New York Giants kicker Josh Brown admitted to a pattern of verbal and physical abuse against his wife in a series of journal entries, emails and a letter to his friends that police released Wednesday.

The documents, obtained by SNY's Ralph Vacchiano, paint a harrowing picture of Brown as a repeated abuser and self-described "sexual deviant." In a letter he wrote in March 2014, Brown said he viewed his wife Molly as his "slave" and described an abuse pattern that started in childhood:

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I have been a liar for most of my life. I made selfish decisions to use and abuse women starting at the age of 7 to fill this void. I objectified women and never really worried about the pain and hurt I caused them. My ability to connect emotionally to other people was zero. My empathy levels were zero.

Because I never handled these underlying issues I became an abuser and hurt Molly physically, emotionally and verbally. I viewed myself as God basically and she was my slave.

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On Friday, Chris Mortensen of ESPN reported Brown will be placed on the commissioner's exempt list and will not play for the Giants again.

Jason Cole of Bleacher Report reported that a Giants spokesman said the team was not aware of the documents before they were released. A records specialist with the King County Sheriff's Office said the documents were not available before Wednesday and had not been cleared for release because it was an ongoing investigation, per Cole.

However, Diana Moskovitz of Deadspin reported that similar information could be found in Brown's divorce file, meaning both the NFL and Giants could have familiarized themselves with the case before Wednesday.

The NFL released a statement Thursday, per Ian Rapoport of NFL Network:

On Thursday, King County Sheriff John Urquhart took exception to the NFL's stance, per Eric Mandel of MyNorthwest.com:

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We would have told them... "Be careful, NFL, don't rush into this. This case is blossoming way more than what happened on May 22 of 2015. We're getting more information, be careful." Again, we're not gonna give them specifics but we certainly would have cautioned the NFL to be careful about what they were going to do.

I don't like the NFL taking shots at the sheriff's office when it's not deserved. It's real simple.

I'm all about transparency and I talk about that all the time but transparency stops when it compromises an investigation and no open investigation will we ever give out to anybody. I don't care if it's the NFL, a football player, whomever it is. And that's exactly what was done in this case. We crossed our I's, we dotted our T's. Period.

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The Giants released a statement Thursday saying Brown would not travel with the team to London for its game against the Los Angeles Rams on Sunday:

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Josh Brown will not travel with the team to London.

In light of the news reports regarding the documents released by the State of Washington yesterday, we think it makes sense to review this newly disclosed information and to revisit this issue following our trip to London.

The Giants do not condone or excuse any form of domestic violence. Josh has acknowledged that he has issues in his life and has been working on these issues through therapy and counseling for a long period of time.

We remain supportive of Josh and his efforts.

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Vacchiano reported that the NFL was aware of at least one incident involving Brown: "Molly Brown did call hotel security on her allegedly 'drunk' husband Josh when he was pounding on her hotel room door at the Pro Bowl in January, and the NFL did help her switch hotel rooms, according to an NFL source."

On Thursday, ESPN's Josina Anderson reported Brown was at the team facility:

Brown practiced Thursday, per Dan Duggan of NJ Advance Media.

Brown, 37, was arrested for domestic violence in May 2015 after an argument with his wife. Those charges were later dropped, and he served a one-game suspension at the start of the 2016 season. Brown was not suspended under the league's domestic violence policy, which requires a six-game ban for a first offense.

Molly Brown said there were more than 20 acts of physical abuse during their marriage, with one police document noting at least eight prior reported incidents. The NFL said she refused to cooperate with its investigation.

"In the course of the league's investigation, our investigators became aware that his wife had filed a statement with the county court alleging previous altercations between the spouses," a statement read. "However, despite multiple attempts to speak with her about this incident and her previous statements, she declined to speak with us."

While Brown has publicly maintained the incident was a "single moment," the police records and his own account of events appear to paint a far different story. Brown wrote he has "physically, mentally, emotionally and verbally been a repulsive man" in one of his journal entries. He detailed an addiction to sex and pornography, saying he "viewed sex as a sport."

In a 2013 email, Brown seemed to admit to physically abusing his wife and acknowledge his children's fear of him:

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I am sure there were several moments of panic for the boys and wondering if they were in a safe place with me. I am sure you were afraid to tell me how you truly felt because you feared my reaction. ... I have struck fear in your heart and not love, compassion or friendship. From the bruise on your leg when we argued ... to the zipper that caught you last April. I am ashamed and disgraced to call myself a husband.

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"It's an unfortunate situation," wide receiver Victor Cruz said, per Vacchiano. "As a teammate, I'm behind Josh Brown. I just want him to get right."

Cruz later clarified his comments on Twitter: "Let's be clear I never said I stood behind Josh Brown's actions, what he admitted to is wrong and I do not stand being domestic abuse in the least bit. As a teammate that's all I know of him, teammate his personal life is exactly that and I stand far away from getting into that."

"You know what if your ex-wife was my daughter yo ASS would be on IR," Baltimore Ravens wide receiver Steve Smith Sr. said on Twitter. "What a shame NFL acts like it cares."

Smith continued to comment on the situation later Thursday:

The Giants have maintained their support for Brown since the suspension, and he has served as their starting kicker for the last five games.

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