Red Sox's Jarren Duran Opens Up About Suicide Attempt and Depression in Netflix Series

Jarren Duran revealed during the Netflix series The Clubhouse: A Year With the Red Sox that his struggles in the 2021-22 seasons contributed to major mental health struggles.

"I was already hearing it from fans," he said in the docuseries (h/t ESPN). "And what they said to me, [it was like], 'I've told myself 10 times worse in the mirror.' That was a really tough time for me. I didn't even want to be here anymore."

He added that he even attempted to kill himself during that time.

"I got to a point where I was sitting in my room, I had my rifle and I had a bullet and I pulled the trigger and the gun clicked, but nothing happened," Duran said. "So, to this day, I think God just didn't let me take my own life because I seriously don't know why it didn't go off. I took it as a sign of, 'I might have to be here for a reason,' so that's when I started to look myself in the mirror after the gun didn't go off. I was like, 'Do I want to be here or do I not want to be here?' That happened for a reason and obviously, you're here for a reason so let's be the way you want to be and play [the way] you want to play and live the way you want to live."

In 2021, Duran's rookie season, he hit .215 with two homers, 10 RBI and a .578 OPS in 33 games. His sophomore season was equally rocky, as he hit .221 with three homers, 17 RBI and a .645 OPS in 58 contests.

He's continued to improve since then, and he had a career year in 2024, hitting .285 with 21 homers, 75 RBI, 111 runs, 34 stolen bases and a .834 OPS. All of those were career highs aside from his batting average.

"Jarren's decision to share his story is an act of courage that reaches far beyond baseball," Red Sox president and CEO Sam Kennedy said in a statement. "By opening up, he's showing others who may be struggling that they're not alone and that asking for help isn't just OK, it's essential. Every member of this organization continues to stand with him. He has our deepest admiration, he's always had our full support and we're incredibly fortunate to have him as part of our team."

If you or someone you know is in immediate crisis, call the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline by dialing 988 for 24/7 access to a trained counselor. You can also contact the Crisis Text Line by texting "HOME" to 741741. For more information about ongoing support and mental health resources, contact the HelpLine at the National Alliance on Mental Illness by calling 1-800-950-NAMI (6264) or emailing [e-mail].