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Steve Nash Admits He'll Never Be the Same Player Ever Again

Grant Hughes
Feb 13, 2014

Steve Nash is a two-time MVP, a surefire Hall of Famer and one of the most beloved teammates in NBA history. But he's also a realist.

In the revealing first episode ofย The Finish Line, a documentary series produced jointly by Nash's Meathawk Productions and Grantland.com, the 40-year-old point guard speaks candidly about the difficulties of fighting back the nerve issues that have cost him most of the past two seasons.

"One of the hardest things about this whole thing is this feeling Iโ€™m stuck in no manโ€™s land," Nash said.

From the very first frame, Nash's vulnerability and doubtโ€”things most professional athletes either lack or never reveal publiclyโ€”are obvious.

Since returning on Feb. 4 from a season-long battle with injury, Nash has looked good in spurts. But he aggravated the situation in an abbreviated 17-minute stint against the Utah Jazz on Feb. 11.

Per Ben Bolch of theย Los Angeles Times: "It was also enough to make one question whether he should even bother coming back."

And as Nash notes in the film:

"Itโ€™s painful to go through the same thing every day and wait and wait and hope that the work youโ€™re doing, the rehabilitation youโ€™re doing is going to come through and youโ€™re going to get back out there. But I donโ€™t know if Iโ€™m going to get better.โ€

The NBA veteran is unfiltered throughout the film, giving viewers a glimpse of every aspect of his attempted recovery. He labors through balancing drills, receives various uncomfortable spine alignments and even winces through a series of injections.

There's also a Baron Davis sighting, so notย everything aboutย The Finish Line is a complete bummer.

But the overall tone is unmistakably somber, and Nash closes the episode with a haunting, brutally honest quote:

"Every athlete, when they lose their skill, they lose a big part of themselves, a part that theyโ€™ve built their life around, that has been a huge part of their purpose, their self esteem, identity. So when the skill, or ability goes, itโ€™s like thereโ€™s been a death. So on the one hand, Iโ€™m lucky Iโ€™ve gotten the better part of 18 years of it. On the other hand, itโ€™ll never be the same again.โ€

Nash is committed to waging one last battle for NBA survival. He's just not sure if he can win it.

(h/t Grantland.com for the video)