Cheer That Girl Up, Would You, Toronto?

I said I would go into a spiraling rant if the Jays coughed up their ninth straight game after the Orioles tied it in the eighth inning. But I just feel disappointment. Jesse Carlson has been nothing short of awful in the month they say brings out all the flowers. Carlson sure over-bloomed.

I mean, alright, sometimes relievers cough up huge leads. At least the Jays were still in the ball game and could win it in extras right?

THEN THAT MOMENT OF GLORY CAME, AARON HILL HIT A TWO RUN BOMB AND THE JAYS WERE ON TOP, AND WERE SURELY GOING TO WIN!

10-8. You couldn't blow that, not after coming this far to score almost more runs than the entire road trip. But yes, you did. B.J. Ryan did. Brian Wolfe gave up a heart-crushing, head-dropping, 3-run bomb to a rookie's name I kept hearing during the series, but still can't rehearse.

GODDAMNIT.

Why do you think that I didn't even turn on a computer last night, as I watched the end of a 7-2 Orioles drubbing, and watched some movie called "A No-Hit No-Run Summer" about the inception of the Montreal Expos and a little kid who just desperately wanted to play baseball so they formed their own team? You know what I was trying to do? I was trying to understand how I could possibly still love baseball when my own team kept on breaking my spirits.

Yes, I'm a diehard, but it's not so much what I've felt emotionally—I'm just extremely disappointed and a passionate writer is all.

Call me crazy if you like, but this is one of my many summer pastimes, and I thought that everything was going so amazingly this summer until this horrible road trip.

27-14 when they left, and now just a mere shadow at 27-23?

What a harsh reality check. It might be time to golf away the summer and break even for once, for I'm giving up my baseball love til Friday night where, if by god, they lose their tenth straight game it will surely be the lowest of lows. HOWEVER, it will not discourage my mood after the game hitting a Toronto bar after a terrible work week and what could be a terrible game. But I SURELY HOPE NOT.