It's something that no Blue Jay fan wants to envision, but with all this trade talk lately it's all I can think about.
There is a possibility that Roy Halladay could be traded, and frankly it's breaking my heart.
Technically, Halladay's contract with the Blue Jays doesn't run out until the end of the 2010 season. Although it would be disappointing to see Doc leave Toronto next year, I certainly wasn't prepared to see him in a different uniform any time soon.
In my perfect world, Halladay would remain a Blue Jay for life and would win a couple more Cy Young awards and a World Series ring. Unfortunately, nothing is guaranteed so Doc might think his chances to accomplish these things could improve with a better team.
I don't blame him for wanting to play for a contender, but I honestly think that next year's Blue Jays squad will restore some of the faith that has previously been lost.
As rewarding as it would be for Halladay to win a championship, I think he would much rather stay in Toronto and continue to build a great pitching staff around him. On several occasions, he has taken less money to stay with the Blue Jays, so obviously Halladay sees something in this organization that he loves.
Halladay doesn't want to create an awkward situation by refusing to waive his no trade clause, so in the best interest of the team he is at least open to the idea of being traded.
That really goes to show you what kind of a player and person Roy Halladay is. He is willing to do whatever it takes to better the Blue Jays, even if he doesn't play for them anymore.
In the middle of his 11th season in the big leagues, Roy isn't getting any younger at 32, but like a fine wine, Halladay is getting better with age. He hasn't shown any signs of slowing down and has developed into one of the most versatile and dependable pitchers in the league.
Any offer that the Blue Jays would throw Halladay's way would take precedence over any temptations he might receive from the free agent market. If Rogers and the Blue Jays want to keep Halladay around, they better be ready to free up about $20 million a year.
There have been so many ups and downs these past few years, but there has been solace in the fact that Roy Halladay has been one of the constants in the Blue Jays organization.
As a fan, it's been a pleasure to watch him work his magic on the hill every five starts. I don't know what to do without that to look forward to.
Baseball would still go on in Toronto, but I'm afraid that my heart might not.