As Brandon Spikes waits, he channels a place deep inside of his soul, the memories that are his alone, the messages of disbelief, the adoring love of his closest supporters, everything that has driven him. Spikes is calm, maybe as peaceful and composed as he can be. The world begins to get anxious. It’s his Patriots teammates, his opponents, his fans. They’re ready for 60 violent minutes of football, but he is still searching for himself.